HURRY UP!!!.....and wait.

How do I even begin to express in word what I feel right now?!

I am here, in mesa Arizona, waiting….waiting for a miracle that I know is going to happen. Raising financial support is probably one of the most interesting, confusing, humbling, and awkward feeling I have yet to have in life!

Why can’t I just earn the money? It would be much easier! Ah, there I go, much easier, right! Easier to rely on my own ability than to rely on the uncertain timing of My Jesus’ provision! Oh, I have so much to learn, so many areas to grow! Can you pray for that?

So here I am with my first update.
I sent out my letters for supporters about two weeks ago, now it is time to wait to see what is in the plans of this crazy plan!

Something big mixed things up this past week. I have set a date! I am actually putting in on the line and going for it! To explain a bit… I have wrestled with God this past month and it has been very disorienting in so many ways, yet this time in the desert brought me to where I am right now. I have had many people come up to me in the past few months asking me when exactly will I be going to Latvia. I would always respond by saying, “well, I am not too sure, but I am hoping for the middle of July sometime, but that all depends on when God provides the means of getting there, so it could be July, or maybe 6 months, maybe 2 years, it is jus in Gods hands.” and yet this seems like a good stance, a good way of showing that I am willing to follow His plan, something really weird would happen when I would say it…every time! It was almost like I was not trusting God by saying it. This is hard to explain. But it is like when I would say July it seems unattainable, and almost irresponsible just because it is so close with such a large amount of money to raise, so then I would say 6 months and then all of a sudden I felt like I could trust God more with that statement, then even more when it came to saying two years!
Then it hit me I was not trusting him more with the longer time of raising money, I was doing exactly the opposite! I was putting more trust in the circumstances of this world and less in God with every statement of a further date. Of coarse god could provide the money anytime he wanted to, but in my feeble mind July was a Big step of faith, actually impossible if I am honest. Six months was definitely more attainable, just send out more letters, talk to more people, yeah it could happen in six months! Oh and two years, no doubt I would be gone before that! But it sounded so good, you know, to be so willing to stick it out and wait on the Lord!

COME ON JAYCEEE!!!! You are called to Latvia for cripes sake!

Funny thing is that something happened about a week ago that has put quite a spin on this whole thing. I was out having coffee with one of the high school students in the youth ministry at Red Mountain Community Church and we were discussing a lot of different things, mostly to do with missions and Gods unknown plan for our life’s and how we all just seem to want to something extraordinary in this life.
The subject of coarse aroused about Latvia. Ashleigh, the young lady I was meeting with mentioned that she was going with the high school group from RMCC to Latvia this summer and was SO excited. I asked here when she is planning on leaving and she said the middle of July. “Whoa, cool!” I said. Cause well that is when I am hoping to leave for Latvia myself…(God providing of coarse!)

“God Providing”

That was the key! It was like I was punched in the face! Jesus just spoke to my heart and convicted me to the core. He spoke and in my heart he asked me why am I such a chicken? Why don’t you just set a date and watch me provide?

Set a date and watch him provide? When I heard that in my heart, something exploded inside of me and my heart was racing and I got so excited/nervous at the same time and I knew it was Jesus speaking to my heart, I knew this was what he wanted!

All this being said, during my talk with Ashleigh she mentioned a need for a female adult leader…wait… “you need a leader, and I am planning on going at the same time, to the same place?” hold up! Jesus is up to something!

So I am going! I have set a date, and now I am going to watch him provide! And now I am going to lead a group of amazing student to the place I love and the people who Jesus’ heart inside me has fallen in love with!!!! Wow!

Isn’t our Jesus the coolest?!! Yeah!